Welcome back, it's your favorite US federal agent here. Yeah, seriously, someone on TikTok accused me of being a fed just because I knew how lab-grown meat works. But whatever. We survived the first heatwave, which on antidepressants that act like stimulants is an absolute nightmare. Our cognitive skills dropped to the level of a literal brick.
The main topic today, though, is our survival report from the Bring Me The Horizon and Knocked Loose concert. BMTH killed it so hard that their new album sounds almost too pop for me now, and "Mantra" played live was absolute fire. But right before they hit the stage, I had the worst panic attack of my entire life. Eighteen thousand people in one place made me want to smash my head against the walls and bolt out of the building. Luckily, the music saved me. I ended up buying Knocked Loose merch because their energy was insane.
The ride back home was classic polish public transit chaos. In a packed tram, someone started singing a christian song and suddenly the whole car joined in. I tried to start "They Will Not Erase Us" by TX2, but somehow nobody caught the vibe. Anyway, this whole post-concert crash is pure biology - depleted serotonin and dopamine give you a comedown similar to MDMA. That is exactly why post-concert depression hits so hard.
Finally, a quick update: I am heading back to Warsaw in February for TX2, this time for two days and with a VIP ticket (Very Important Pigeon). I hope the Hydrozagadka club allows for better crowd interaction. And in my free time, I am planning to go sightseeing in Warsaw's graveyards, because apparently they have some beautiful cemetery art.
